I (19M) really need someone in my life who I like and would dote on me :(

I need hugs

I feel.... I wouldn't necessarily say "empty" anymore, but I feel my heart sinking all the time just seeing people from far away and not being able to get that close with them. Or even just be friends, forget about affection and love. I don't think most guys are like me and need as much love or affection. I might be lonelier and they may be colder (not in the sense of being rude, just, not "warm").

I don't know. I genuinely believe I'm not going to get the kind of male affection I want, ever. That's not to say I think it'll "never get better", because I don't doubt I'll make some superficial friendships at least, and that's enough to stave off the more extreme symptoms of loneliness, but still.

I've developed a good relationship with myself, and I'm pretty introverted so I don't need a lot of interaction, but unfortunately, I am still human. :/

School's the only place I meet other people, I'm convinced I'm never finding anyone there. I don't like family so I stay away from them.

Maybe when I'm older and in my mid-20's I could, but .... that still means a few years of deprivation, if I'm lucky.