I don't mind being alone, it's feeling lonely that I can't stand. I have no friends, barley talk to my one coworker and have nobody that i spend time with. I always wish that I had like 1 good friend, but I'm so antisocial that it's a problem. More so, I do wish that I had a gf, but at the same time I have nothing to offer in a relationship and I'm in no way an interesting person. It's also hard to open up to anyone with the fear of judgement and that people just don't actually care. And if I'm not even happy with myself, how could ever possibly make someone else happy, let alone care for me. Thank you if you read all of that, sorry if I'm annoying.