Hi there, I hope all you guys a doing great. Me, not so much. this pass year is been a difficult one for me with a lot of personal and economic problems only make it worse but I power through it all because I didn’t have other options, it was ether that or sink.

Fortunately those thing got solve with really good conclusions but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard. So when my friends told me it was time to put my self out there, I knew I wasn’t ready but at the same time I feel so lonely in all aspects (when I say that it was a hard year I meant it) and in reality part of me wanted that but I wasn’t sure if I was ready. So then my other friend told me that if I’m not ready for a relationship but still wanted a version of that the I should try to find a fwb.

Honestly, I wasn’t sure of the idea because the last time i try that it didn’t go so well (that was totally my fault, I was young, inexperienced and super insecure) but then I thought “what the hell, I don’t lose everything by trying”.

So last week I reinstalled Reddit and make a new account since at the start of last year I erase my old one. Then I started to surf the usual subs for thing like that and then I found a post that caught my eye and I send a message to the user that I was close to the area that she lives at and that I would like to talk if she was interested.

We’ll she was because like five minutes later she respond to my message and we started chatting. She ask me for a pic and I send it to her and then her tone change a little and then she started to ask me some questions that at the moment didn’t seem much but latter I would realize why she ask. If you guys haven’t got it yet, this was the girl that I try to be fwb before and that didn’t work out (again all ma fault), anyway after clearing all up and by me apologizing for everything we started talking (that was last Tuesday) on snap and thing got a little spicy. Then I ask the one million dollar question “hey girl, is there anyway that we can try again?”, she said that she will really think about it and then she ask me what was going to be different. I told her that I wasn’t the same person I was back them, that I’m more mature and that I want the same thing she wants. Also, how crazy is that we meet again the same way we meet last time.

Then she said that she will really think about it and we when to bed. We need up texting the next couple of days all the way until Friday when she text me with her response. She said that it was really nice that we got to reconnect again but that she doesn’t think that this is the curse we should we’ve taking right now. Then I ask her if there is any way that I could change her mind (mind you, she is really nice and I like talking to her, also she is really hot and since we both want the same thing, it’s like a thing send from heaven). She said that not at the moment, that sex wasn’t out of the question but not right now.

I was ok with that, after the way things ended toast time thanks to my stupidity well this is the best option so far. So after that we still talking but it feels weird, she takes a a lot to respond. I know that she has a really demanding job, that’s why I would text her after 5 but before Friday, she would respond faster. Also when I try to flirt with her, she ignores it and then just continues with the conversation.

Honestly I don’t know what I was hoping for but I guess she just said that sex wasn’t out of the question just to make me feel better but we’ll it doesn’t, if she didn’t want to do it in the first place she can just tell me. Like I said, last time things ended bad because of me so I guess I couldn’t expect more. Well in any case I think this is karma so I guess it’s fine. I still plan of being her friend I’ll just stop flirting with her and stop to get in her pants lol.

Anyway, I just wanted to vent a little so if you have make it to this point. I thank you and have a good day.