Has anyone else been diagnosed as having medication and therapy resistant situational depression? (That is depression caused by a situation or event).

My depression is mostly caused by loneliness. Was bullied a lot about not having any friends and relationships, which makes me more isolated, which makes me more depressed. And round and round we go.

Hobbies and interests. Work. Study. Volunteering. Gym and sports. Having pets. All the dating and friendship apps and sites like this I can find. Meditation and yoga. Focusing on myself and putting myself out there waiting for it to happen one day when I least expect it. Even therapy. None of it has worked or helped. Just being around people for the sake of being out there just makes me feel worse because it highlights just how much I don’t fit in anywhere and that nobody is interested in me.

The last 2 years have been the sole, 24/7 carer for my blind and physically disabled mother. That just adds a ton load more isolation. Even carer support groups have been no help, since most are much, much older than me, or they have a partner, a family of their own, and friends. Nobody seems to ever be looking for the same things I am.

Most days feel like just a day to day, even hour by hour, prospect tbh. I know my mother would get better care than I can give her if I wasn’t around. And it feels like there is only way this loneliness will ever really stop.