Hi, from what I've seen, talking about how you feel usually helps, although I don't feel that the reasons are very big, I think that letting off steam would be good for me. I think that dividing it into two parts will be the best, the first thing is that I have this feeling of loneliness for a few years, if I were to give a more specific time, maybe two or three years. There could even be many more but I only realized until these last few years. Let's say that I began to notice that I didn't have 'deep' friendships, by this I mean that even people I consider close I hardly knew them and they didn't seem to want to know me either. In that part I usually rationalize the reasons and I admit that I have not made a great effort to change that fact either. Either way this gets into a kind of vicious cycle where I think there is something wrong with me since there don't seem to be people who want to meet me. Because I can't help but think that a person's effort is needed for a conversation and it seems that I'm always the one who has to make the effort, I haven't met anyone who has done it with me. This is where we come to the second part, this is related to my nonexistent love life, one that I have missed more over the years. In a certain way it is related to the above and taking into account that I am a shy person and somewhat introverted, it is not easy for something to happen. Many things come into debate here, that if the man is the one who should take the first step, that if the woman wants to have a relationship, I don't know, those things don't have much to do with what I want to say here. In this longing for a partner I have tried these dating apps, but the result has been less than zero for years, and I am not exaggerating when I say it, I have tried for years and I have not been able to get someone to be interested in me. This, as you can imagine, does not help much so that I do not think that there is something wrong with me. I even got help from a friend who introduced me to a friend of hers and we went on a couple of dates, so that after a few months she completely ignored me. That combined with a family trip, which I will not go into details, in which that feeling of loneliness worsened, made me feel terrible and I did not know if this was my fault. I guess maybe yes and maybe not, but in the end there is only one thing that is true and that is that I feel very bad. I started going to psychotherapy a few months ago, which has helped a bit. I was diagnosed with mild depression, which doesn't surprise me that much. The therapy part is just about to start but I really hope something improves. I just wanted to blow off some steam and this seemed like a good place, thanks to those reading all of this. I wish you the best and if you are going through something similar or worse I hope you can get through it.

S.N: I'm not a native English speaker, I wrote this in my language first and then translated it with Google so if there is something weird that I didn't spot when I checked it I apologize.