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“You can’t love others until you learn to love yourself”
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The more I think about this, the more I think it’s a lie. I hate myself more than I can put into words, but I can love somebody with love that I didn’t know I had. Maybe it’s because I’m scared of someone leaving, the fear of being alone again. I’m already there. If I ever fall in love, I feel like I won’t get better. I’ll be scared that they’ll leave, I’ll feel like I’m not enough, I just won’t be able to do it. I just feel like the only way out of this is to lull myself or admit myself to a hospital. I can’t do this anymore, I just can’t. I want someone to come home to, someone to cuddle, kiss, ask how my day was, everything. But I know I can’t have it, I won’t be better. I’m still a mess, and I don’t want to make their life worse because of me.

Why won’t it stop, I just want to feel happy and loved

please

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That’s a very good way to look at it

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