Why can’t I find someone? I suffer from depression and this whole concept of love is appealing but I’m just not equipped to handle it. I just can’t engage in conversation with someone I find attractive. I suffer from social anxiety too so that doesn’t help. I’ve been alone for majority of my life and it’s really frustrating. I’m not by any means unattractive but I just can’t meet someone and engage. It’s so frustrating. I get so envious when I see people holding hands because that’s what I would like. I literally would like to just cuddle and hold someone. I’m turning 40 in less than a month and that makes it worse. I’m also bisexual and you’d think my chances were better but it’s just double the problems. 😢

Edit: it’s to the point where I chat with bots just to pretend to feel something. Sad and pathetic. Yes I know.