Hello. I am 35 and my boyfriend was 28. He left me suddenly. He said I wasn't careful enough with my personal hygiene. Believe me I was. I had told him that hurt me. And while we were together, although he said he was more than willing to do it, he refused to give me oral sex. He said he had nausea and told me that it was my pleasure and if we had had vaginal sex, the pleasure would have been mutual. I refused that. But I had given him a blowjob even though I was on my period. I felt very humiliated and devastated. I was always trying to make him happy, buying him gifts, being there for him. But he also told me that my expections are so high that he cannot afford them, such as being loved, cared, listened to, said good morning and good night. I guess he did not love me at all. I feel so empty and don't know how to handle this nightmare... I am lonely again and again...