To all my reddit friends who see this. I'm afraid I am done trying. My mental status has changed dramatically from wanting to be friends with people no matter what to wanting to be alone at all costs. This feeling caused me to lose a lot of friends in the first place so I guess it won't really matter now. To all the fellow lonely people. If you want to keep trying please keep trying but if you feel you need a break from it all then do it. Focus on yourself and be a better person.

Funny how my life has been from a string of one good friend to the other and they all left me or I did something to make them leave. I don't know how to be friendly anymore. I don't even know what to talk about anymore. I just simply don't care about anything. I don't know why I am so apathetic. Perhaps it has something to do with still having feelings for a girl who is 5 years into her relationship and planning on getting married to another guy. Or maybe losing a relationship because of my own mother who hated her and made me break up with her. Or the fact that I had a chance with a girl but I was too afraid to make a move because of failed confession to the aforementioned girl who is in the 5 year relationship. I just couldn't handle rejection again. Perhaps I should just stop going after girls now. I am 27 years old and I still act like a kid, I thought if I was funny enough or caring enough that people wouldn't leave me but I guess I'm still just not enough. I am just so tired of it all. So tired of being second place to all my life experiences. I'm deleting this app and all my socials. To anyone who read this. Thank you for reading my story. I won't be able to tell because I'll be gone.

I love you all. I have a lot of love to give but it seems no one wants it so I'll just give it to you guys. I hope you can feel as much love as I can send through my words ❤️. Take care everybody.