I’m in love with the most beautiful woman on the planet. She loves me. We’ve spent months learning each other inside and out. We have so many things in common and we’re both spiritual people as well.

I’m also getting divorced and a father. Though I’ve been separated for a year, bc things aren’t finalized, my responsibilities are different than the woman I love, and bc we’ve been trying to strengthen our relationships with God, we have gone on pause.

We don’t speak really at all. We see each other everyday but we barely talk. Don’t text. And it’s killing me.

She was one of my best friends, and my lover and now we just aren’t. It just hurts.