He sat infront of me on the edge of the sofa. I placed my fingers carefully on his neck and rested my other hand on his back. I asked if the position felt right, he breathed yes. His eyes went wide in confirmation as I applied pressure.

I held his gaze and whispered good boy until his eyes unfocused and drooped. He exhaled raggedly through his lips and I released the pressure on his neck. I continued supporting him until he started to come back.

There's a curious few seconds, just a brief window, when he is back from the brink of darkness, but his sensibilities haven't clicked into place. Sometimes he gropes me hard, kisses me deeply, bites, claws. Other times he delicately folds into me, seeking comfort, touch, gentleness. I always follow his lead in that window, I think it reveals what he needs.

This morning he was gentle as he drifted back. He leaned into me, eyes pleading. I wrapped my arms around him tightly and kissed the top of his head. His hands ran along my body, his breath started to slow back down. I leaned him over and guided him down, sinking into the sofa with him, still holding him tight.

We laid tangled up in each other and he couldn't seem to get enough. He looked up at me with his dreamy eyes and asked me if he could have a blanket. I obliged, sitting up and carefully draping a blanket across him and tucking it under his chin. I curled back up with him holding his head to my chest and playing with his soft, wavy hair. I buried my nose in it, he smells so lovely.

I pulled the side of my tank top down, exposing my left breast. He took no encouragement, immediately taking my nipple into his mouth. He sucked gently and played over it with his tongue. I moaned softly and just enjoyed having him against me, in my arms, sucking on my tit.

He had felt a bit little before, glimpses of it...but not like this. The way he looked at me, it wasn't an option, he needed me. He needed to be touching me. He needed me to hold him, kiss him, touch him, take care of him. It was bliss. But what I didn't expect is how it made me feel. A calm settled over me, my mind quieted, and I was fully in the moment.

I'm not sure how long we laid there for, but it was the perfect way to spend a quiet morning. And we will be exploring this more as soon as possible x