Just kinda venting I suppose, I'm not opposed to chatting with someone but I really just want to find comfort in a screen until I can fall back to sleep and hopefully not dream.

I've been having a rough time lately, I met a guy in June and things got kinda heavy emotionally pretty fast, apparently either too fast for him or he just immediately regretted it/looked for a way out. Since then we tried being 'friends' but I'm not so good at that once I get attached to someone so I have been trying to give him space, but he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Which is fine. I don't want to be gaslighted due to someone not being able to communicate their own needs, that's not alright with me.

But now I'm losing some of my online friends over this (well, his friends I guess first), and it's just very hurtful to be shut out. Nobody can say they don't want to talk to me but it's evidenced in them all playing together and hiding out in secret channels. I'm not sure why people are like that? Like just say 'Hey, we don't wanna hang out anymore, bye.' or ban the person, or whatever! It's not such a big deal, and it's so much healthier..

Anyways. I just need to get stuff off my chest and I don't know where else to turn. Normally I'd go ask for someone to read to me, but I don't want anyone to try to get sexual with me because I'm just not feeling into that right now, so here I am just venting away at a subreddit.

I hope everyone has a great weekend regardless. Stay safe out there and remember to be kind to yourself and others. You never know where someone is coming from or what they've been through, and you deserve kindness, too!