My mothers boyfriend is an abusive arrogant asshole. I’m supposed to be home for a vacation as I haven’t seen my loved ones in 3 years.

I was getting slowly in touch with family as I could starting to have fun again in life. My mum even let me share her bed because I have seizures and ptsd. I got to see my puppy and help one of our other puppies that is sick. And have done everything in my little power to make her feel better. I check on her all day long.

Last night I was told I am no longer welcome at my mom’s place. My mom disagrees, but has mentioned I need “tough love”. I’m coming back from an almost successful suicide attempt 3 weeks ago. And the last thing I need right now is tough love. He kept reiterating how I need to grow up, how I’m a loser and I’m pathetic. How dare I claim I’m sick (I guess he’s a doctor and can see all my medical records?). But doctor asshole thinks that I can simply for my condition take some Tylenol suck it up and f****ing go to work. Everyone does it. I’m just useless, fragile and pathetic.

I just needed to get that off my chest. As I’m trying to make myself see what I saw a few days ago. A very strong big and growing stronger little. I can’t see any of that anymore. The words just reverberate in my head over and over.