So, today I woke up at 6am to a horrible dream and was so terrified I went and texted my ex without even thinking.

The dream was so real to me to the point of me crying for a good 30 minutes and my little self was trying so desperately to find someone to comfort her that I lost my composure and did the thing I said I wasn't going to do.

The messages are sent I can't take them back and I'm already feeling like I'm reverting back to a dark place.

I have no one to find comfort in and I thought about reaching out to friends and immediately thought against it because they have no clue about what I'm going through.

I miss having a daddy for moments like this because I feel so helpless, it's scary.

Do any of you ever feel like this? If so how do you cope.

Do you have friends you can confide in?

I know in some cases it's best to sit down and try to relax but that doesn't always work for me.

Any advice could be helpful, I don't really feel comfortable reaching out and looking for some kind of place holder.

I would love to know what you think.