So, recently (moreso anyways) I've been having a bit of an issue I guess? I don't really know what else to call it, but I'm sure there's a better word. My little space has been severly repressed due to life circumstances (unfortunately some parts of them are still very much active), and I can only assume it is due to this that as of late I find myself struggling to get into little space due to my reflections on it when I am out of it. For a long time I was told that the things I wanted and needed, especially when it came to kink play, were not in fact ok, and when leaving my headspace it's all I can think about. Now when feeling those needs, it makes me spiral out of what space I am able to get in, at times followed by depressive states and panic attacks. I am no longer with the... I really don't want to call them a cg, but that's what they presented themselves as at the time before the issues were caused. So I guess I just want to know if anyone else goes through this kind of thing, and if so what helps you move past it? I don't want to lose what little bit of that part of myself I still have while trying to find a way out.

Side note: Sorry if I used the wrong flair.