I got sick from work and yesterday was really bad cause my whole body hurt. I ended up texting my ex daddy and we talked a bit(but I didn't tell him I was sick or in a lot of pain). he and I talked about reconnecting slowly. like ... really slowly. I suggested we meet up in person to talk about things sometime but he said he wasn't ready for that, which I understand. so instead I suggested that we just keep in contact once in awhile, and that I would keep my little side out of any conversation we have. he said that wouldn't be too much for him, which is good, but it's not enough for me. though big me knows that if I want things to work out with him this time around I have to take things slow, little me feels absolutely terrible about that. Ive been desperately in need of comfort since he and I broke up and really struggling to find it. I'm still sick today and god it just really sucks. I've been in and out of little space and I feel terrible. I live alone, so I don't have anyone to take care of me at all, and I'm really feeling it right now. I just wish I had someone to tell me I'll be alright and who would hold me while I have painful coughing fits.