I've noticed that I still have to pull the communication out on myself. I only get "What's up, how's your day" questions and genuinely try to bring up new topics that aren't supported in any way. Then I get tired and burned out, because I'm just a little too. People are surprisingly asking after a while: "why did you stop answering" and I don't have the energy to be a source of energy and a reason to talk – so I end up silent.

Do you and your cg have common themes, hobbies, or is your partner involved initially? Because I don't get it. I feel bad that a lot of people don't get a response from me initially, because I've spent all my energy taking the whole conversation out on myself with a random couple people who are just don’t give me any feelings or inspiration.

Although...I realize I have considerable and healthy demands on the person I'm chatting with, I still feel like everyone has a favorite person but me. I really want to meet a dominant but respectful man who will at least briefly take responsibility, rather than declare his fantasies or desires out loud. At times like this, I feel helpless in a bad way, because I can't physically fulfill cg's desires…so I just listen and nod.

I also noticed that I meet very few literate and attractive minded cg daddies. I realize that I am not a native speaker and I may have less right to demand beautiful, long messages...but short, empty phrases seem like a candy wrapper. It's like the person doesn't want to make an effort. It feels unfair to give all my trust and obedience to the person, who can’t allure me with their powerful yet kind words.

What do you think about that? Should I give up on looking for a person like that or daddies like this exist?

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