Usually I’m not a materialist, two toys, two pacifiers, one coloring book and books for reading only from library, are my standard pack to go. But this month my little self can’t calm down. I want a new specific toy, specific type of chocolate, a paci and hair bands with clips. Those are such a little things to ask, but I absolutely can’t spend money on myself. Making gifts for someone? Sure. Healthy food options? Absolutely. But I don’t let myself to buy stuff that not important. As if a had a strict adult in me. And if I ignore big voice and buy something anyway, I feel so so so guilty, I can’t even touch a new thingy for weeks. 🐇

Maybe it’s possible to trick myself? I thought about packing new little stuff nicely in a box with ribbons and then unpack it after a while. But the whole idea seem so unhappy and lonely. 💦

P. S. Before you ask in the comments or in DMs, nope, I don’t like the idea of finding a cg for that purpose. It is a bad idea and doesn’t stick to my moral code. :<