I've been limerent for about 9 months now. I ended a 10-year relationship in part because it just doesn't feel like I can put energy into it while I'm so obsessed with my LO. My psych nurse added memantine to my regimen (Effexor 75mg, Abilify 2mg) in hopes that it would take some of the edge off my obsession, but it doesn't seem to be helping.

Yesterday we had lunch, which was a lot of fun. Several times throughout the day I found myself in tears in my car, just thinking about how my feelings for her are by far the single clearest emotion I have, and grateful that she still wants me in her life. It's hard enough having separated from my partner; if I went NC I don't know how I'd cope.

I'm going on a trip and seeing a lot of friends in a couple of weeks, so hopefully that'll help get me moving forward. There's one person I was thinking of as a dating prospect, despite it being long distance, but right now it doesn't feel fair to put energy into something new when I'm still so wrapped up in my LE.