It was so painful I wished for actual physical pain I’m new to this limerence thing and didn’t know I was going through it until a Tik tok popped up, perfect timing right?

We met at work she showed me attention didn’t want it until I broke up with my ex of 5 years she’d walk by me a lot and be in my area I’d flirt with her but it didn’t really take off until after my break up

Funny cuz I asked for her number 3 separate times and on the last time she gave it to me guess third times a charm, bad signs from the start first time we hooked up I went to a restaurant afterwords and ate alone I was on top of the world cuz I slept with 2 women that day one being my LO not bragging but.

I was in the restaurant thinking idk about what but I think that’s when the limerence set in the beginning of the end, i was so anxious I couldn’t sleep I didn’t eat I woke up out my sleep constantly to see if she texted me she didn’t she never did she never texted me first,

Work was exciting for the first time since I’ve been there anticipating sneaky link ups in an unused parking lot at work hoping to see her on my days off which happend about 3 times and after about 3 weeks of this she ends it for one reason or another just ends it.

A weight was lifted from from my shoulders but I was heart broken wanted to cry took a day off after Thinking wtf is going on with me I knew this would be the out come but why do I feel like I’m drowning My chest it hurts a lot one of the worst pains I’ve ever felt and I’ve had a heart attack at a young age due to depression and suicidal thoughts I held it together the next week acting unfazed but deep down I was dying like a house was burning inside me and there was nothing I could do about it.

I had some time off requested about a week the worst week of my life, the pain it hurt a lot that’s all I kept saying it hurts tried to occupy my mind text or Talk to other women but I just kept thinking of my LO even after sleeping with other women she was always in my mind, and the pain I’ll never forget it lasted 2 weeks my chest was on fire and felt heavy I cried a lot I was angry at myself for feeling this way Asking why, I’ve felt this before but it was so intense this time just thinking about it now almost brings me to tears it’s like I was being toutured constantly everyday waking up with this pain I’d rather have physical pain,and the relapse and realization that it’s over for good I cried for 2 nights yelling why, why is it like this and I don’t want to feel this anymore into my pillow, the pain of limerence I’ll never feel That again and I wouldn’t wish that kind of pain on anyone.