I recently attended a wedding of our mutual friends. My mother was invited too and was seated directly in the front.

When he went up and waited to do his speech, he kept turning around to look at us, as if analysing her face or our interaction something.

Shortly after my speech I saw he was still kind of staring as I escorted my mother out of the building. I have great peripheral view so I try to act like I don’t see it.

It’s been years since the one day we’ve shared, the countless times we took turns rejecting one another, the lack of action on his behalf & yet I’m still incapable of moving on.

What can I do, tell me I’m delusional