Maybe this is a limerent or unrealistic view of loving...

I just read this dumb poem on my FB memories from a couple years ago, something about love being like the wind and the sea... And this was what I posted along with it:

"The wind sucks, it blows, im good! The sea is cold, salty and stupid, I don't want to drown in love... I want love like... a rainforest. Warm, fascinating, alive and growing. With deadly insects and cool birds... I want something worth saving, something special. When I'm ready. I'm not ready."

I don't even remember writing that but, I agree.

I'm still not ready for a relationship but I feel like ... so much calmer now than I was then. I am basically LO-less atm

The potential I saw with former LO... I think that's what makes my heart twinge. 😔 That I'll never know 🤷🏼‍♀️