I know I made a promise with one of my sisters back in 2013 that we would do a tradition where we both stay up til midnight every new year eve to celebrate the new year together but truthfully, I dont want to do that with her anymore because when I came out as trans to her, she was super transphobic, thought it was a hobby, made me feel bad about it, even told me shit like "be a strong man and open this bottle" when she knows I prefer being referred to as a woman and when I wanted to grow long hair for a ponytail, she told me to not be selfish and think about my mother who is suffering from cancer, like wtf, I have accompanied my mom to the hospital and bought food for her, just cuz she is a conservative woman who hates me lookin girly doesnt make me selfish.

But just in case, am I an asshole for not feeling comfortable doing this tradition with her anymore? I dont feel close or comfortable with her anymore