Okay so I just watched Bros (2022) and it is a romcom about 2 gay guys. What I can't begin to fathom is how it is giving me gender envy... I am a bisexual trans girl. I love that it makes me so happy. But looking at this. It's giving me massive wishes that I was a gay/bisexual man? Like I'm not a man and I hate being percieved as a man... So why am I getting male gender envy? Is this just imposter syndrome? Is it me thinking I am something I am not? Could I actually be male? Like Why did this give me so much envy? Could it just be relationship envy? Like seeing two people so happy made me wish I had it so the fact that they were gay made me wish I could be gay? I fall very heavily on the Bi-cycle. One day I am completely lesbian, the next extremely Bisexual... But never gay? Now I don't know. The idea of being in a relationship with a man sounds great... But what sucks is that it'd have to be a straight man. And I've had bad experiences with them... I'm just... I don't know what to think...

Sorry for the long post
TLDR: Trans fem confused because she might want to be mlm gay.