when i was 13 i figured out i wasnt straight. i didnt know any labels besides gay lesbian and bi but i was sure i didnt like boys so i went with lesbian. when i found out that bisexuality is more accepted in school (only bi women tho, everyone's still homophobic) i labelled myself as that to the point i convinced myself that i am bi.

im 18 now and I've only ever been with men during highschool, i never enjoyed it. but i felt like that my "attraction" to men would make the girls i know not feel grossed out by me. im out to my parents as bi as well, felt like they'd accept me more if they believed i still had a chance to end up with a guy. i never had a crush on a boy that wasnt brought on by peer pressure tho, so im sure that im a lesbian.

i think im just scared, well, i know im scared. i dont know any lesbians irl, the lgbt people i know are all somewhat attracted to men. just the idea of me being out as a lesbian already feels so isolating.