A while back, I was groomed and sexually abused by a man.

And now, I’m dating this guy, let’s say N. We are in the same year of HS and I see him almost every day. We have been dating I think for a few weeks. But, every time we are on a date, or I think about our relationship, or anything that could happen in the future with it. I think about what happened.

N makes me so happy, and it’s the first relationship I’ve had with someone my age. And I like how he makes me feel.

But, it’s so hard. I have to shove down what I feel when I see him. I want to be happy, but I can’t stop remembering it.

Am I a bad boyfriend? I haven’t talked to him in about a week. I feel so shitty. What should I do? I’m so confused, and I feel so bad