Just like the title reads. Some of my youngest sexual memories where of me dressing up. I would wear my moms heels around the house until I got caught and she told me no. I still continued… actually, during my teenager years, I would fully dress up. Makeup, shoes, clothes, wig even. I would get turned on seeing myself as a girl. I got caught by mom again. She forced me to be normal it was this whole deal. I would try and do regular guy things. But I wasn’t that interested in any of it really. I would also try and watch regular straight porn all throughout my teenage years and would pretend to like it lol but would never cum from it. The first time I actually came from masterbating wasn’t even to porn, it was to images of a fully clothed transwoman. After I came I was hooked on scouring the net for different trans women. It was mainly the places that imagination took me that would make me oragasm not the women themselves.

I ended up getting a gf around this time. We where together for a long time. We had a regular sex life and normal relationship. We ended up breaking up and I started dressing up as a girl. I am now pretty confused, I kind of don’t want to another girlfriend. I want a boyfriend now and would like to wear women’s clothing in public for the fashion now. It doesn’t turn me on anymore. I just genuinely think women’s fashion is more interesting. I also enjoy makeup. And prefer to have a smaller physique. What does this make me though? I know I would benefit talking to a therapist but I’m curious if anyone has ever had a similar situation