There is this guy at my school. He’s so nice, and funny, and gay like me. We’ve been on 3 dates. Nothing serious just fun stuff.

But something happened to me a little over a month ago. I was convinced to send pictures and videos of me doing things to a grown man online. And it has just destroyed my mental health even further.

I keep seeing all these things that remind me of what happened. And when I do, I freak out, it feels like it’s happening all over again.

I can’t even see someone kissing. A friend gave me a hug the other day. And I had a breakdown. Everything is so awful.

But. I want to date this boy. But idk if I can. I want him to like me. But I keep remembering bad things. And what if we actually do start dating, and then he kissed me or something and I break down? Would that make me a bad boyfriend? I’m so confused, and I feel awful, and I don’t know what to do