After a long time of denial, I've finally decided to be honest with myself. I am Trans. I spent years of my life in disbelief and tried to downplay or dismiss other trans folks. I'm sure in that time I said some hateful things about a community I wasn't ready to admin that I was a part of. I didn't want to admit it to myself that I've never felt aligned with my born gender and even my gender wasn't set in stone.. Being intersex made things very confusing. My parents AMAB for me because they wanted a son. They raised me as a hateful son under guise of far right Christianity. For the longest time, I thought I was an androgyne. Neither masculine nor feminine. A lot has happened in my life and unfortunately my reddit account reflects in some of my older posts my poor upbringing, intolerance, ignorance, and discrimination. All because I didn't know what to do with being trans. Counseling and an extremely supportive spouse helped me realize who I really am. I'm going to work hard to advocate for my LBGTQ family and vote to keep us safe. I'm sorry to my fellow trans brethren. It was hard for my to admit something that my growing up I taught to hate. My father tried to beat it out of me as child when I first started carrying a purse. My mother would yell at my for playing barbies with my sisters. My grandparents were worried I turn out to be "one of the gays". So I pushed it down. It manifested in the worst way possible, I know I'll never be able to take back what I said. I'm sorry for it, but ignorance is so widespread I want to be clear how I have changed. I hope many others who shared my horrific hatred can too.