Maybe this is the wrong subreddit... but for as long as I (17F) have been able to have sexual attraction to males and females. I don’t really call myself bisexual though because I only want to date men. It sucks, because I can’t exactly call myself straight but I feel bad for saying I’m bisexual because I don’t date women either. One of my LGBT friends said that I was “bisexual but heteroromantic” and that would make sense but I feel like a lot of LGBT people or even hereto people I talk to wouldn’t think it’s a phase or I’m just trying to be “trendy”. As if sexuality could ever be a trend lol.

This hasn’t caused problems with my family, in fact my parents told me they would rather me be lesbian than straight so I couldn’t get pregnant from some dumb boy. My mom and dad both know I’m sexually attracted to females but my dad’s girlfriend shamed me about it in front of my 14 year old sister last year. She pulled out a conversation I had with a girl friend of mine (who is older than I am!) that got sexual and read out loud the stuff we said back and forth to embarrass me and make an example of me in front of my sister. My sister was shocked but thankfully she didn’t care. I’m away from that bitch but it hurt and still does.

It’s even affected my relationships. I’ve told most of the guys I’ve dated and being teen boys they just think “Hot” but some have been even more insecure because they think I’m going to run off with some girl.

I want to experiment further with women and possibly even date one to see if it’s something I could do but just don’t think I could now. Maybe I am fully bisexual but for now I just say I’m like 1/2 bisexual. I really don’t know what to do and it plagued my mind daily. Please help me. I want to know what I am.