I'm 19 year old muslim Indian girl. I'm bisexual but I'm more like alot more into women. I cannot stand the idea of being intimate with a man. Though I'm like 5% into men (if that makes any sense). My family is veryyy homophobic. I don't live with my family but in a shared apartment. But I have very less privacy because everywhere I go there will be someone from my family. I know for a fact that I'm gonna have to marry a guy whether I like it or not. My family is homophobic and orthodox muslims. I want to be with a woman. I'm scared to use dating apps because what if someone recognises me. I want to have sex with a woman. If a relationship is not possible but I want to be intimate with a woman. What should I do?!?!?!!!😭😭😭