I am 17, most likely going out of state for college, and I am struggling, not only as to where I want to go but mentally.

I feel like I am trans, I go by another name at school, and by my birthname (given the person). Some people use He/Him pronouns and others use She/Her.

Sometimes I don't shave because I just don't care to, yet I don't like facial hair, the same goes with body hair. I fear that if I take steps to transition I won't know who I am.

For the most part, I feel like I am trans but I always have that voice in my head saying "What? am I? You don't feel those things you read about now do you."

I just don't know what I am going to do and I fear all my choices. I just want to know who am I, what am I.

Am I the only one who feels like this? I would love some advice.