This is primarily going to be a rant. Also kinda long. Sorry. TLDR at the end.

I've typed out a bunch of things and erased them, hopefully this attempt will be a bit clearer. Long story short, I'm 26, bi, non-binary. Was raised in a conservative Christian household, you know how they are. Have been becoming more open minded the past 10 years or so, but still working on it. Still see my family fairly often though (ranges from once a week to once a month). Messes with my mental health a bit, but they're mostly the only people I see IRL since I WFH and don't have any friends, so I guess it's better than almost no human contact at all???

My work computer crapped out today (Saturday, I work Fri-Tue), so my dad (mom is out of town for work) is letting me stay with him through Monday when IT can take a look at it. I don't have a car currently, so this is definitely a huge help, saving time and money on an Uber and maybe a ride or two from them since they live less than half the distance to my work than I do (~7 miles compared to ~17).

Tonight, me and my dad decided to watch part of Knock At The Cabin before he went to bed. For those who haven't watched it, at the beginning, the girl, Wen, mentioned having 2 dads. She then said her schoolmates all have just the one. At which point, my dad mentioned, "As it should be."

Should I have said something? Probably. But my dad can become a bit rough verbally, and I'm horrible at rebuttals (or what would feel like rebuttals), so, to keep the peace, I said nothing. I just felt horrible about the comment he made. Plus, if I had said something, I would have risked either being kicked out or having a lecture on "the gays" or possibly my dad trying to "turn me back", or a little bit of everything, and I wasn't really interested in that happening at 10pm. I realize, at times, I may just be using my parents to make my life a bit easier, which may be the case, and would be bad if true.

Which is why I'm so glad I'm moving >1000 miles away soon. I'm so excited to be able to stop faking who I am. I believe this move will allow me to spread my wings a bit, still a but of an introvert but able to actually go out and not be a recluse.

TLDR: Grew up Christian. Getting better. Still hanging out with parents even though they're homophobic because I'm a bit of a recluse. Finally moving away, think this is what I need to break out of my shell and meet new people.