I had my first experience with a man, and I’m not sure how to feel about it. I’ve always caught myself staring at certain dudes and always watching MMF videos. I do Jiujitsu and and met this guy at class. We always rolled together and during no gi I felt his package while going for a submission and it gave me butterflies. I thought it was just nerves, but when I got home I decided to see if it was a real thing and watched a MM video and I liked it.

So fast forward a few weeks, I ask Bryan to go out for a drink. We had a good time talking and hanging out. I awkwardly asked him to come over and hangout, not knowing how to invite him over not knowing if he’s into it. He said sure and we had a few more shots at the house and shot the shit some more. I got pretty drunk and just came right out and asked if he was bi or liked dudes. He didn’t answer me at first, but after the awkward silence he said he’d try anything once. So we tried some stuff and it went great. I was so nervous, but glad I did it.