Though sometimes I think I'm more lesbian as I think about girls way more than I do guys but I'm still attracted to men. I'm honestly still quite confused about what I am.

Let me start off saying I don't think my family has anything against LGBT People but I know that grand parents always talk about how they can't wait until I give them grand children when I get married to a nice man. I've always been afraid of telling them my preferences.

I have a girlfriend but it's a secret relationship as we're both in the same situation and her also being my senior.

I'm writing this really late at night. It's 2am so I apologize for the sloppy writing but it's been weighing on my mind lately as I've been trying to sleep. I would like to open but I've always currently be closed about it, more so with how people might view me.

I've always been ok with hiding it but certain events happened in the past few weeks that people like my coworkers are starting to talk behind my back and most likely spread rumors.