Hi, I am ftm 20 from India. My mother constantly bullies me. She makes fun of my body and she will tell me how ugly I am. She is very upset that I am on hrt. She indirectly told me that I have ruined my face due to hrt. She was happy as I am planning to study abroad but it got delayed due to the document change process. She was mocking how people of my age are doing better than me. I told her then I have decided not to go abroad but rather study here in my city. She got upset and told me how all her relatives are here and she doesn't want them to know about this thing. She and her daughter always make fun of my ugly face and I get a lot of attention from daddies. I only have a few bucks left for my hrt. I have paid everything from my earned money through ad breaks. I don't earn any more. It is getting harder to tolerate this woman. She used to tell me o kill myself every day from 2020 to now. It got lesser because I ain't dying. Sometimes I do feel like then my anger issues kicks in. Rant over