Just have a panic attack in my own apartment with family nobody didn't help claming me (tell me breath slow )or anything medical attention to me my hands stiff and my whole body was stiff . I just lost job like almost month work with Amazon (1year) I hate it total fuck my life I'm crying like everyday and panic attack when I go to sleep .I scared of death all my life since was I kid . I hate some human beings get killed everyday. I can't listened any death music(Tool,Slipkot,etc.) I will get headache in few seconds in song ,I used listened to them in my high school days. I don't get my little brother anymore is Junkie he 21year old boy he smoke 5 grams everyday 365/24/7 in year, personality I barely smoke 2 grams for myself .He don't work at all he using my dad's check he thinks his. There one day I was sleeping in to go interview for job then wake up my little brother puts a knife on neck .I was laying down he tell me if I you see I steal my weed Im cutting your neck I'm transgender I was crying all day cops doesn't anything I'm getting lawyer soon my own dad don't care he thinks I'm lying and making bullshit.