Hey all. I'm not really active at all on this subreddit, and this is an alt as my fiance knows my main. I've been dating this person, lets call them E, for over a year now. We've bonded incredibly as a couple and we've been the best friends you could imagine since we met and started dating. I know I love him, that's not up for debate, we got engaged on December 31st, right at New Year's.

My question is, I fell in love with him when he presented as a girl. Feminine, big eye catching earrings, makeup, long hair, etc. As time has gone on, he's become more comfortable in displaying masculinity, like not wearing makeup, shorter boyish hair, he/him pronouns, etc., no doubt due to my influence and love. But I'm wondering what that makes me. I loved him as a girl, and I love him as a boy. I loved him in the weird in-between stage where he identified as non-binary. But as someone who grew up heterosexual, and has always considered himself heterosexual, it's really difficult for me to imagine myself as anything else, purely because I have no idea what I'd be labeled as. This is my first time dating a boy, my parents hate me for it, E always feels bad when I talk about this with him because he feels like he's changing me for the worse. But I decided to come to the people who would know best about this, ig.

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TLDR: FtM boyfriend/fiance makes me question my previously heterosexual ass. What am I?

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Edit: I forgot to add that if any of this is offensive at all, I sincerely apologize, I've been battling these thoughts for a while and I have zero intention of offending anyone. Thank you.