So I know a few days ago I posted about some very pleasant effects the drug was having for me. It’s been nice honestly, in those moments that I used to feel anxious and unable to perform that now, I don’t worry and I can have a good time easily. But I don’t know, this isn’t feeling right. I’m starting to feel like I am killing an ant with a machine gun— this just feels too heavy duty to me. The side effects are kicking my ass so severely and I just want to get off this roller coaster. My friends are saying, give it a month. But like, no way. I’m not doing this for a month, to then have to spend another month or more tapering off safely. What I want to do is taper off from where I’m at now and make a renewed effort to address my problems through therapy and other methods. I wasn’t really doing that prior to starting the meds and now I’m feeling like I want to give that a proper try before getting the big guns involved again, because the trade off for this adjustment period is just so huge. I think I expected this drug to be a substitute for therapy, which is a lot more expensive and difficult to access and takes longer, and maybe it would be, but the way I’m feeling since I started it is just not feeling worth it.

Obviously most people here are here because they are taking the drug or trying to get used to taking it. But does anyone have thoughts on when it might actually not be the right decision, and would be better to come off it?

If it turns out I can’t make any progress in another way, then maybe I would go back on it. But for me, the severity of this is making it feel like something that I should treat as a last resort. It doesn’t feel good to me, getting my ass kicked like this by a drug.