As the title says I’m really losing the will to live I don’t think I can go on anymore I was diagnosed with ALL in mid April this year, I have to have a stem cell transplant which is happening at the end of this month along with radiotherapy. This past year has honestly been a nightmare and since I’m feeling a little bit better and not like absolute shit from all the chemo etc. I’ve had time to look back and reflect and it’s just been awful. All the hospital trips, the bone marrow biopsies (which fucking hurt) the lumbar punctures, the long stays in hospital, doctor appointments etc. A part of me just wants to give up and die because honestly what’s the point? I’m just so alone and upset.

If you have taken the time to have read this I appreciate it ❤️