Eventually… Like you said. Eventually these feelings will change.

I don’t believe they will ever go away, and quite honestly I don’t want them to. I don’t want to forget or lose the love you’ve made me feel so full of. Some day though, I hope they simmer. Because all I can think about today, is you. Just you. My mind feels consumed and it’s an overwhelming place to be. I don’t want this to get in the way. I don’t want it to.

I’m trying to remind myself that I don’t need you, no matter how badly I want to need you, I don’t. I just want you. I already have you, so that should be enough?

I want your hand pressed against my cheek to calm these anxious thoughts and feelings.

Enjoyment. That’s what this boils down to. Enjoyment of my time with you. Why am I so wrapped up in the long term idea of you. I don’t want to ruin this. I don’t want to make you run away. I need your help. Guide me. Help me figure this out. Can we figure this out together, please?

Why can’t eventually just FIND me already…