Why 6 ... 6 years ago i was broken from 6 years of trying to grow up with a girl i realized i didnt even love after it was done been over that but in those years i seen someone change and hide there sexuality which is so damaging it made me completely toxic

3 months i dated the swipe thing man one nights i realized everyones broken and i hate sex with no connections not for me so i gave up for a week and i met you

Your life was a walking red flag everything about it you ill spare the details cause it just show me i shouldve known better but those days getting lost in you i never fucking felt that close to anyone

Within 2 months i curved your marriage proposal daily i knew it felt to good and your life wasnt adding up but i fucking loved you i trusted you i married you on your birthday i wish i didnt

A mom of 3 with one little girl i bonded and claimed and every moment with that girl means everything i wish i wasnt dragging my feet because the legal right to be her dad was important but you promised no matter what i believed that no matter who we became

Each year you changed more yelling and names more pills more tears more believing it was me i went from the world to nothing i used to take it for you i breathed for you And you lied about so many things including your fucking herpes im gonna be healthy but your getting worse your darkness is manifesting into daily cold sores and your still talking down on me

The man ive become ive had it your friends are children your 33 you picked a friend who traumatized his family threw the little life he had a way does drugs were better people than that im no saint i know my woes but this man said inhumane things strung out and thats the moment i knew its over the line

Banning him i stood my ground fuck your feelings and fuck him to that little girl ive carried though this shitty life and made something beautiful while you grew i raised and loved her routine fun joy and the tuff shit sick days sad days all the money i could obtain without being able to hold a job because one year its income restrictions bipolar earn more be more while youve been able to have you bullshit jobs that arent careers you years got you fancy shit and i never paid attention

I seen the finesse along time ago but i seen why you lost the 2 and i cant even say their names when your making bullshit decisions when im trying to get you to wake up so we can raise her together peace and then hell with you non binary i love you for you even your toxic the worst days when i cried and you sat on your ass smoking wax while i figure out how to survive the 5 to 6 days i see your pain to be home how you wanted to go into work for over time but i never see anything listening to you talk about IRA's and credit your leveling up because i didnt leave you to mom

You cant handle childern you dont have the ability to be selfless you cant stop trying to be an image you cant handle walking up and down the fucking stairs you will live in filth you wont cook you think she can do shit she cant you think she can use the stove you let her do things alone in the kitchen at 7 while your stoned and half awake upstairs

I cant trust you in love but fuck your shitty half ass love i HATE HOW YOU DONT SEE my anxiety from the moment she wakes up til shes sleeping when shes gone whos there trauma from you LEAVING HER when you have to work

3 years old 3rd day on a job needed a ride to work got there didnt even walk in i knew something was wrong i went back home looked crazy when i got home she was alone no one was there youd really pick money over her i know what it feels like to have your mothers image destroyed so i never showed her told her not you or your child friends

That moment i seen how its getting bad i told that man not to come back ive been loosing anger being unlike myself feeling alone figuring your filling your needs loyal because unlike you i dont ever want to feel the pain of an STD or being a shit fuckiny liar i care about my girl so i deal and i have for 3 years

A SEXUAL? more like fell out of love and want the image of a mom whos got it all when living with you has made me wanna die i see why you had that court case why your girls were taken why you are broken because you live in denial your a MIXED PERSON BLACK and your drivers license says white ... when i seen that a year ago i just knew i shouldve done shit a million other times but then i seen your mind is gone your on a child endangerment list your a criminal your a dead beat and a shitty fucking wife

Any time i said something you yelled called me names a bum emotionally weak a bitch ... i wouldn't be but i choose her you know your mean as shit when you wake up the start of your day your routine your dab how you work at a weedshop just to spend the money after your fancy car payment insurance phone you pay the little bills you love that car so much you have 1 point left on your shit because you cant fucking drive 6 years together and youve had 5 car accidents one i thought you fucking died with my shitty little delivery money thats not enough kept her feed paid some bills catering to your needs for money when you have a REAL JOB

Me dealing for this ghetto ass section 8 requirements while you get one college job to the next listening to you watching my time go as the girl gets bigger then you criticize me when you should be thankful not for me but for the love i have for her a baby i didnt have any part in making

Seriously FUCK YOU your karma isnt me its how you treat your kids how you lied when i have videos and text of your screaming how you had the nerve to divorce or threaten to make a FALSE PPO the walls i hit 4 times different days and it wasnt okay and im not saying me engaging in a fight with you ever is okay but HIT YOU Harm you youre the most sick twisted head case i thought about canceling my hearing because you texted when you left because i toosed your stupid fucking dab glass on the carpet which didnt break from my stupid little delivery job that i bought you that was an attack not you following me in the bathroom screaming your friend isnt my choice

When cops judges cps SO MANY FUCKING PEOPLE TOLD YOU TO STOP YOUR OUT OF CHANCES you defend a meth head and you corner me you hurt me as a father im trying to protect my girl from a man who just lost his wife and kid for smashing windows and threating lives fuck your friend and how you claim your ex husband family and always shitted on mine

Those people call you names and dont give a shit there gonna fight over that moldy out trailer where my child doesnt belong over doses of herion smoking next to a oxygen tank domestic violence you were warned

You took my kid and disappeared for 5 days 6 fucking years i stayed for her and you took her i havent gone this long and im physically sick this girl needs me she comes home sick from chain smoking you really lied on court papers i have your messages saying im not gonna wait for you to hit me ... and you go and say i did i mean facts are facts you dont think

Change your number shut off my fucking phone embarrass my name take the kid from me lie you placed her in an unsafe place you broke my soul you act scared my family means well but you fucking made me out to be evil because its never you ...

For the weedshop job that you sell drugs out the back for the heart break of ripping my girl away when you know id never keep her away for tearing my family apart for putting my fucking dog we raised in the ppo for giving me an outbreak for lying AND FOR A WEEK LATER YOU ON FUCKING BUMBLE READY TO INFECT SOMEONE ELSE shouldnt you be concerned about much more like the fact you have no utilities that im off your voucher that i took my life back because this fight was friday and sunday i had BIG NEWS

Ive been saving and it paid off youd be a home owner may 2025 ... but im going alone you dont deserve the house and its nice and my brother you hate so much have big plans people make mistakes he wouldnt harm a hair on my girls heads if you family can laugh when im in aginany closed the door come to my home call text and say fucked up shit tell me i dont deserve things they dont know you

When the people show you what i warned you when you loose it all or scam someone else as within so without you cant hurt me anymore loosing my girl for now is enough your eldest is gonna be 13 in 4 days and your in another cps case for a lie you just dont see who are you ... we even though your half fucking ass all you do is gift the kid and be a mom on your fucking watch you want my spot are you ready to make sacrifices changes see the judge that said never to come back to her court

I really have 6 years of shit while i have moments and additions in the beginning that little girl changed me you dont even know what to feed her you dont know you make her fucking cry and i tell her its okay shes not your first you have favorites which is fucking weird that its been 5 years i thought me being pure and shit could change you but your no better your gonna find some other lost soul in lansing and paint them the same way I HAVE NO CRIMINAL RECORD i never fucked with life after i got my shit together

The family of your ex husband who watched and none of these same people saved those girls you really believe this is gonna be the mom they come back to ... enjoy your apt that you made me move out of in 1 fucking day after 6 years your ripped my fucking heart to shreads your a liar and i choose to leave it at that but youre thinking about dating? I dont even wanna be touched ever its gonna take so much therapy and in the end i have love for you but you lost me ill never hold you look at you ill parent with you but you under estimated me a HOME OWNER SON YOU SAID YOU WANTED A HOUSE SO I GOT ONE THATS NO BULLSHIT I WAS WAITING FOR YOUR DAY OFF SUNDAY BUT YOU NEVER CAME HOME .... ive been hiding it since after Christmas because i knew it make up for what i wanted to do ... i have the car payment for 3 days ive been waiting for you because its ILLEGAL to talk to my wife this is by far way worse than i ever thought I just wanted the 25th to be not hell and show you i can be a man thats why i shut shit off because if im out i cant afford to wait for you to lift you greedy finger and allow me home i hope the shit hole was worth it and that you can get approved again because you got your dream house hold of two with no dad and as i TAUGHT the girl you can always prove the truth not a lie stop breaking her head love that girl CHANGE i never meant to be toxic but you cant even try to convince me shit else good fucking luck dont make anymore trauma as you tell me grow up

*FOR LEGAL REASONS THIS IS A VENT POST AND I DIDNT LIST ANY NAMES