When I left Florida and him. I was going to start anew. Drove till I can drive no further yet he followed me. He didn’t treat me right when he had me. His love was like Pantera. You take this love, punch love fists. It was a familiar feeling all the I love you. That’s the love I don’t want. That love is pain.

It was like a curse was broken. Just a few days ago. He wanted so badly to find one and I think he hit the jack pot. It’s perfect for him. Superficial just like him lol. It is going to destroy him. Same medicine just reversed. Ofcouse it can go two different ways. Let’s pretend I can already see it. Bask in the ambiance soak it all in.

Some people’s character and personality are evil. Not all people are for the better good. Some just give good face and will do and say whatever to get their way. Morally they aren’t. It’s the Devilish desire you let devour then destroys you. Oh those eyes speak all I want to hear. I’d eat your eyes.

So with that being said. He kept me in depression for 4 years after following me out here. But now the spell has broken and I’m finally free. He’s so funny how he keeps so private. Paranoid people will do like he would and sabotage his life just as he has. He asks for forgiveness so vague. His words meant shit. Eat shit be miserable and rest in peace.

You have no idea what that man has done to me over and over. What that man has taken from me. He is so vile he wanted me to rot. Loose my mind deteriorate and die. Then collect my money because he asked me to be his spouse in march of this year. Put a ring on my finger. Bare minimum emotional bonding. It wasn’t like I thought it would be. Maybe because it wasn’t meant to be. Like he told me a few days ago. God has different plans for him.

Why would I think he wouldn’t string me along and play me? When I learned of his FB and he didn’t request me but was still sexing me and telling me he loves me. Then 💥 I see he’s just a fake ass buster. When he took a picture of deep throating a dildo I realized I don’t know this man.

I mean I’ve know him since 2012 but I don’t know this man. He uploaded it to Reddit and was getting all kinds of attention. I was like wtf is happening? I’m not a swinger nor open relationship. I was a freak with him in the sheets but lady in the streets. I was committed to him. He didn’t fight for us.

He was playing the mental health card. 4th DUI without jail time. Excuse me he did 10 days after VOP. He’s sucking off someone cuz 4th dui crash and only fines haha whatever. Violated a few times ankle monitor and all but he’s off and good to go. Did a 30 day rehab which he had fun and made friends. Was sober 2 months barely and he was acting like if you wanna get sober I’ll help you. Playing the role of a person that can abstain and be committed and true. Not his character. That lasted 2 months and back in the paint. Hollywood Ft. Laudy Daudy we loves to party in Broward county. I already know been there and done that.

No more headaches no more pain. No more tears falling draining me. I can’t pretend that it still doesn’t hurt me anymore. It still does. I long for the day I no longer think of you. I wish your I love you’s were true. But that wish will never come true. Dark side will shine but you are not stronger than my light.

Because you’re weak. Steroids pills you’ll cheat each and every way. To present yourself as someone that you want but can never achieve. This is why you hate and have said you don’t even love yourself. Fair warning you can’t love someone if you can’t love yourself. Famous words of dipshit.

Naw just another one of his excuses. Oh honey gas light someone else. You got that act on lock and even gonna lie. Got the VA fooled. At least you can afford your life. Don’t have to live off mommy our any woman our friend. Now he says roommate.

The truth is you will never truly know. He lives so many lives. I can see all the lies when I look into his eyes.