I’m trying to give you the time that you wanted. I really am. But boy is it tough. We went from talking every day to radio silence. And it’s tough, I hope it’s as tough for you as it is me, but I really don’t think it is. You were ready for this. You wanted this.

You say I never owned up to my misdeeds, well then here it is. I know I messed things up. I accept that, and I always have with you. I always admitted when I was wrong, when I needed to change things. But then got told that I needed to stop changing for you.

Do you understand what that’s like? To want to be there for someone and not change things so that everything can be good again? I learned a lot, and I’m thankful for that. But now… now it’s radio silence. I can’t even reach out to you if I’m having a bad day and I just need a friend. Because that would break what you want.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry that it seems from my writings that I never owned up to my mistakes. But I do. I hold them over my head just as much as you do. I know I’m not perfect. I know I’m rough around the edges. I’m trying…