Tell me why you think it wouldn't have worked. Yes we are complete opposites but they do say opposites attract. It was like you didn't want to even give the chance to get to know me. I'm more than what's on the surface. Yes my life is chaotic but I found such serenity around you. A calm that couldn't be explained. Yes things rushed very quickly but things were all so going to slow down where we could just get to know each other in our own little worlds and take it day by day. U said you didn't deserve me. What did you mean by that? Did you mean that I was too much for you or did you mean that you thought I was too good for you or what? That's what confuses me now. I don't think neither one of us didn't deserve the other because things happen for a reason and we met by Fate and I think we need each other but you didn't see it as that. I stressed you out and overwhelmed you. But I have to say you didn't even listen to my whole side of the story. U would shut me down and walk away without ever taking my feelings into consideration. I just needed you to say I was doing a good job. I'm going to succeed no matter what. Whether Or not you're there to see this then that's on you. Your touch drove me wild. Your eyes and your smile even more so. All the things I wish you would say played over and over in my head. I think I scared you. I think I scared you with my feelings. I should have never said anything. I should have just walked away. But I couldn't. After what I felt that night I wanted it for a long time if not forever. You needed to let loose a little. You need to just not be so uptight. You needed to live in the moment and smile more and laugh more. You needed to experience life and love. U needed to heal. U deserve to heal. Trauma sucks. But sometimes u need someone to help u see that life is worth living. I just stupidly had hoped u saw that with me. Butwhatever. Blame it on the drugs. U always place the blame elsewhere. But even without the drugs, things felt, ya kno, right.. ugh. Goodbye. Ill be gone. As you wish...