Do you still check these? Do you still look to see what words I use to describe how I feel? Or do you truthfully just not care anymore?

You told me you needed space. That’s fine. I get it. I know that I can be a little much sometimes, but what you wanted space from wasn’t me trying to be affectionate. No. What you wanted space from was just me. Me trying to have you in my life.

And I am giving it to you. I’m not reaching out to talk to you about every little thing. My name may show up as a notification, but that’s just to show you that I’m still thinking of you when I have good looking food.

You’ve made it clear. You really have. That you don’t want me like I want you. Which honestly? Fine. I’m not going to push the subject anymore. But you’ve always told me that you’d still be my friend. That you like talking to me. But right now… I feel like if I stop reaching out, then you won’t even notice. I could just disappear from your life and you wouldn’t have a second thought about it.

So I ask again. Do you still read these like you said you did? Do you even care? I know the answer. I try to pretend that I don’t. But I really do.