And we all know it’s because of you. You’ve put me in my head so much lately, that the thought train just doesn’t want to stop going a million miles an hour.

Even when I try to make it slow down, either by ignoring it, or using what means I can, it just keeps going. And it’s telling me something.

It’s telling me that I mean something to you. It’s telling me that I shouldn’t give up on you. On being the person you want in your life. But my heart on the other hand. I don’t know how much more it can withstand without some form of validation. I don’t even know if that’s the right word for what I’m trying to tell you. But ya know… I may be good with my words but not always.

And that’s what kills me. If I could just put my brain on a slide show for you to see what I see. To see what I think. Then maybe you’d finally get it. Or maybe it would stop you from running away from me.

I wish you read these. And I think you do. But I’ll never be sure. Because I don’t want you to come flying at me with anger for sharing my thoughts with strangers on the internet. But I can’t share my feelings with you anymore. I can’t share that I long for your attention. You just don’t want to hear it.