i try not to think about you but once in a while my mom brings you up and i cant talk to you so i guess ill write a letter . you were a good person to be my friend even though i couldnt be a good one to you . you were the only real friend ive ever had and i will never understand why you ever wanted to talk to me at all . its kinda embarrassing to admit that you made such an impact on me for someone i never got to meet . i havent watched our show still since the day we stopped talking . you helped me in so many ways - always bringing light and fun and being there for me after my silly " relationship " ended . even though it was probably better for you that i did , i am sorry i blocked you . i know you understand that too . mom says you have a baby now named dean and that made my heart hurt a bit because that was something we always talked about you doing . i am happy you are happy and i do not blame you for never looking back - i would not either . even if you somehow found this letter , i know you probably would not think twice to remember me and thats okay . but if you do ever think of me , i hope you know you are the best person ive ever known .