It was good seeing you today.

I was thinking about the possibility of us miraculously walking into each other. Despite it being a rainy day, you were out and about and I was in my way home from work.

I knew you’d be happy to see me. It was unexpected that you’d shower me in so much affection and kindness. I felt safe with you like I did before. The slight brushes as you pushed the hair out of my face. You held my hand and fiddled with my rings. It made me realize all the love that you truly had for me.

Even with your new lover, you have never been shy to tell me that you love me. And today made me realize how my love will be with you forever. I can’t exactly understand what it was about me that made my presences so special in your life. I can see that now, how special I was to you, and maybe that’s why you held onto me for so long.

You said something intriguing but so kind. Talking about how God gave you a gift to talk to people. How you’ve met some really terrible people because of it, but you also met the best people too. We met in such a unique way and you took every chance you could to pursue me. Even in my doubts, you still held onto me. It’s been 7 months since I’ve seen you and you still looked at me like it was the day you first met me.

Your eyes pierced into my soul just like the night you first walked me home.

As you always said, I will always hold that special place in your heart. And honestly, you’ll be tucked away somewhere in mine too.

I’ll never forget you as the first man to truly love me.

I still believe in you. Get well soon my love.