I'm the W but to tell the truth, I feel like I'm the OW. The reason is yes I get him at night and on the weekends but you are who he sneaks in the bathroom to talk to you, or when I'm far enough away so he can switch his page before I get too close. I know when he's away from home whether it be at work, his lunch, or wherever he sees you and does what he does. It's been an on thing for years we have split a few times and he begs for me to forgive. We have been together for almost 20 years and we are family so we always come back together things are perfect for a while and still are but no matter what I'd do, try to change about myself to the point I don't know who I am anymore, all for him... He still reverts to his lies. I know he loves me and I him. But something is missing in me that he looks for in others. Believe me we don't have a dB at all a little boring sometimes cause of life but it is usually exciting. But I've excepted that it will never be enough for him. I'm tired of wondering who or when he's seeing or talking or sharing pics with you, probably not just you. I know he keeps his options open. I just wish he would be truthful honestly maybe it's the chase or excitement of not getting caught. But I'm here today and finally, give up. So he can see you and talk to you I don't care. We are never leaving each other I know that. I hope you do to. Our kids are almost out of the house so he will be free soon to decide what he wants. He says it's me but I know better. I haven't told him yet but I accept him for who he is and that he will never change. I just hope he stays safe for my health and yours cause he is normally not. But that's another issue.........!! I haven't offered an open marriage yet to him cause I know he would never share me but it's ok for him to share himself with you. Men! I've been heartbroken for too long and I just quit I can't let myself think and my anxiety is beyond crazy I don't eat or sleep I've lost weight because of this. So I'm done I have to be. My mind hopefully will stop thinking so much and not care. Shoot if he wants I can help him pick out girls. I just hope it's not from his work cause that went so well last time. I won't be jumping out of my car to confront you so don't worry you too you bo! But I need to have something too it's not fair. I changed so much for him and I should be worrying about my happiness also not just his all the time. He knows what it does to me he's seen it. But babe if you see this let me know what you want ..roommates. open. or I can step away gracefully. Like I've done before. But I am offering you an open if you need cause Maybe that is the only way you're happy. I might not do anything cause you are everything I've always wanted you to know but I need a connection too. It's not fair. So here are all my cards on the table you decide. But I refuse this to one side anymore.